-- CRAZY/BEAUTIFUL --

Ten years ago, this movie came out in Germany, and I watched it, and it became my absolute favorite at the time. About a year later, on my long way home from high school, I was waiting for the bus in a gray small town not far from where I lived, when some girl, who was also waiting, asked for my name. She seemed nice, and her name was Sarah, which is a nice name, so I talked to her. About two minutes later she asked me what my favorite movie was. "Crazy/Beautiful", I said, and she screamed "That's my favorite movie too!", from then on we were best friends. The film is great, if you are a girl of any age, you will love it, and look at the pictures, so nineties, wow. I remember how I wanted my very own Jay Hernandez. And in German, the film is called "Verrückt/Schön"...

A DAYDREAM NATION

Forever, if that makes sense to you.

WHEN YOUR LIFE TURNS INTO A HIGHWAY

I've been asking myself a lot of questions lately. I was never good at doing that. Most of the time I had the answers for everything and everyone. But it is really hard to come to terms with your own devils, especially when you are 24 years old living in New York City. It's been 2 years this month, and I am trying to figure out where my feet will take me next, and why am I still in this city, and why have I not left yet. Nietzsche said "Why does man not see things? He is himself standing in the way: he conceals things." I become somebody more aware of myself and my surroundings. I've always been good at reading people, their characters, intentions, schemes and worries, but I stopped asking myself the simplest questions about my own life. And I stopped working towards the 'oh so clear' agenda, turning it into an indisputable labyrinth with walls built around it. I've been growing out my hair like Rapunzel in the princess tower. I've been living modest because I wanted to save up for a brighter future. I work too much and I study things that I want to learn but that I don't need to be happy. My truth is every mistake I made. My truth is my discernment and its expanding capacity. I am happier now. I have a clear prospect of what there is to come and what it is I can do. My ability to feel what I feel isn't worth nothing.

Besides all that, I began a research to find out how many degrees I am separated from Friedrich Nietzsche. My grandmother carries his name and their ancestors are from the same region in Prussia. Today is a good day. I have Panda visiting Brooklyn. We will have wine at Chez Oskar.


Attached a few things that represent my last week.

RIP AMY WINEHOUSE

Amy Winehouse died yesterday at the age of 27.
About 4 years ago I made this cover song for my mothers birthday.
I don't think many people have heard it. Maybe now is a good time.

Tears Dry On Their Own (by Young&Sad)

WEEZER & ASH UNITE

I think today 11 years ago I listened to this song for the very first time.




I always also loved this cover by Ash which was the B-side of their Burn Baby Burn release.




And this is how I got this, which is hilarious, plus has an awesome cover of "I Only Want To Be With You" and
a live version of "Kung Fu", hell yeah:




And then I was thinking about this, which always makes me jump on my bed:

Koalamonkey

I invented an animal. It's a Koalamonkey. It has a monkey body and a koala head.

The Koalamonkey

Ali with her head in things.

 Ali put her head in the freezer, in the stove, in the hoist.

BUILD YOUR CASTLE, STOP COLLECTING STONES AND THE RIVER BED SHALL NOT BE YOUR HOME

Beautiful paintings of marine battleships by van de Velde, Baur, Chambers and the like.

LYNN GOLDSMITH

Lynn Goldsmith is a pioneer amongst the rock photographers and one of my favorites. These are some of my favorite pictures she took, a lot are in black and white and a few in color.

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JOHN WHITE ALEXANDER ~ PT. I

I recently fell in love with the paintings of John White Alexander.

pompous fabrics, deep dark cats with satin fur, pastel flowers, sensitive lighting, contemplation, pale bodies and rosy cheeks, i am going to dream about shadows tonight...