December 23, 2011


To Germany for the Holidays... or for what's left of them. I haven't seen my family in over a year, so this should be wonderful. Not like last year, where I spent my entire Christmas season HOME ALONE, and Christmas eve at a Chinese take out restaurant on Lexington Av on the Upper East Side, together with a jaded old couple that sipped their jasmine teas for two hours slowly and without ever saying a word. Then I went home and drank root beer and ate candy until I fell asleep to the sound of mentally ill pigeons bashing their heads against my window. This year will be all different, of course.

Home Alone (Columbus, 1990)

December 12, 2011


Thinking about the past on Sunday, December 11th 2011.

When I was about 10 years old I became an actress. A pretty bad one, to be honest. And when I first saw GIANT with James Dean, I thought I could one day be old enough for him to like me. I think I am old enough now. So I watched GIANT tonight and thought about my time with James.

Then I noticed this:

Giant (Stevens, 1956)

Days of Heaven (Malick, 1978)

Then I watched Badlands. Another house. And burning.

Badlands (Malick, 1973)

Then I remembered Sissy Spacek walking through fire.
Carrie (De Palma, 1976)

Then I looked at a lot of pictures of Sissy Spacek until i felt weird.

Badlands (Malick, 1973)

Then I ventured through the film archives until I ended up with this other dude who I really wanted to like me when I was 15.
By then I had figured out that I would never catch up with Al Pacino's age, and that I would have to compromise -- in reality I could only make him marry me once he'd be an almost 70 year old man.
Serpico (Lumet, 1973)

Then I was entirely happy and figured it was the right time to go to sleep.

December 02, 2011


Looking to start a project with another person to make music. If you live in New York and are interested, send me an email! anna.rikje(at)

November 26, 2011


Went Upstate for Thanksgiving. Reheating turkey in the microwave about six times a day, watching the 'Storage Wars' marathon, play Call of Duty, Scattergories, Apples to Apples and walk around town wishing I didn't have my camera stolen by a bunch of assholes in fucking Brooklyn earlier this year. I feel pretty good right now. Maybe I will move back to Europe soon -- nowhere is better than everywhere after all.


November 16, 2011

November 06, 2011


Nothing to say but I've listened to this a lot lately.


Ten years ago, this movie came out in Germany, and I watched it, and it became my absolute favorite at the time. About a year later, on my long way home from high school, I was waiting for the bus in a gray small town not far from where I lived, when some girl, who was also waiting, asked for my name. She seemed nice, and her name was Sarah, which is a nice name, so I talked to her. About two minutes later she asked me what my favorite movie was. "Crazy/Beautiful", I said, and she screamed "That's my favorite movie too!", from then on we were best friends. The film is great, if you are a girl of any age, you will love it, and look at the pictures, so nineties, wow. I remember how I wanted my very own Jay Hernandez. And in German, the film is called "Verrückt/Schön"...

October 02, 2011


I've been asking myself a lot of questions lately. I was never good at doing that. Most of the time I had the answers for everything and everyone. But it is really hard to come to terms with your own devils, especially when you are 24 years old living in New York City. It's been 2 years this month, and I am trying to figure out where my feet will take me next, and why am I still in this city, and why have I not left yet. Nietzsche said "Why does man not see things? He is himself standing in the way: he conceals things." I become somebody more aware of myself and my surroundings. I've always been good at reading people, their characters, intentions, schemes and worries, but I stopped asking myself the simplest questions about my own life. And I stopped working towards the 'oh so clear' agenda, turning it into an indisputable labyrinth with walls built around it. I've been growing out my hair like Rapunzel in the princess tower. I've been living modest because I wanted to save up for a brighter future. I work too much and I study things that I want to learn but that I don't need to be happy. My truth is every mistake I made. My truth is my discernment and its expanding capacity. I am happier now. I have a clear prospect of what there is to come and what it is I can do. My ability to feel what I feel isn't worth nothing.

Besides all that, I began a research to find out how many degrees I am separated from Friedrich Nietzsche. My grandmother carries his name and their ancestors are from the same region in Prussia. Today is a good day. I have Panda visiting Brooklyn. We will have wine at Chez Oskar.

Attached a few things that represent my last week.

July 24, 2011


Amy Winehouse died yesterday at the age of 27.
About 4 years ago I made this cover song for my mothers birthday.
I don't think many people have heard it. Maybe now is a good time.

Tears Dry On Their Own (by Young&Sad)

July 15, 2011


I think today 11 years ago I listened to this song for the very first time.

I always also loved this cover by Ash which was the B-side of their Burn Baby Burn release.

And this is how I got this, which is hilarious, plus has an awesome cover of "I Only Want To Be With You" and
a live version of "Kung Fu", hell yeah:

And then I was thinking about this, which always makes me jump on my bed:

July 08, 2011


I invented an animal. It's a Koalamonkey. It has a monkey body and a koala head.
The Koalamonkey

May 17, 2011